Today is a fun day
Cuz YP came to crash JJ!!

I just came to school to see him and watch movie..
But got so disappointed cuz it was Bowling For Columbine again..
Thought it would be Flight of the Fireflies.. Guess i can't watch that with the class anymore... =(

Was late again. 30th time. Wooh!
I'm so hopeless hahaha.

While waiting for HJ to end her lesson, we played with the OHP











Then proceeded to make a comic strip.
So hilarious la, i tell you.

HJ came for a while then had to leave for lesson.
Then Rice YP and i went to JP to meet Randy.

Max Payne was payneful to watch. Dunno what i mean then go watch it yourself.
But YP kinda enjoyed it i guess.
And the guy who sat beside me had serious B.O problems.

I wanted to watch HSM3!! =(
Unfortunately, i was outnumbered. Sigh.

I really need to find time to watch Wall.E
if not Noelle can't get back her CD.


Next post: Comic strip!

P.S i love to rhyme XD

Thinking...
It's an instinct humans have. You can't stop yourself from thinking.
Good thoughts, bad thoughts, random thoughts, sad memories, happy memories, your past, your future, your life.
At least, for me that is.
Hope my brain's getting bigger from all the thinking.
Come to think of it, i'm like Winnie the Pooh. Though i prefer to be Eeyore. But people tend to give me Tiggers.. Bah, nonsense again.

Today
Ate with aunty Molly's family at Zhou's kitchen.
Talked about education with Shi Wei.
Had great food, but not full.
After that, went to aunty Molly's house.
Ren Yi shared his overseas experience and gave some advice. Quite useful.
I know i'll learn to be more independent on my own.
And being away from it all will allow me some space and time to think better.

I need more space. More freedom.

Weasel took the photo

Yesterday was a happy-emo day:). Let's just leave it at that.

~When friends feel like family...~

I feel so hurt.
I want to tell someone my grievances but.. what should i say? What can i say? What will i say?
I'm not good at these things.
I thought it would be better to keep everything to myself, but it's really.. painful. It feels like i'm suffocating. Really.

School...
Meaningless.

I have no mood to go out tmr.

It's great that we'll be 'celebrating' halloween next week.
I can just wear a really scary mask to cover my face, so no one will know...

I should be content with what i have, cuz it's my life.
That's how it is.
Shouldn't think so much.
Shouldn't let people's comments bother me.
Should just let it pass.
Shouldn't care anymore.
I don't want to care anymore.

So, let me start caring about you.

My conscience(well, whatever that's left of it): Funny lah, how can you care about others when you can't even take care of yourself?

I know. Pathetic right.

So many things happened lately, dunno where to start.
So, i shouldn't start with anything.

Was looking at my archives(again), and i miss my younger self, when days were carefree and i faced everyday with an open mind..

I wanna be my carefree self! My REAL self!
I need to define myself!!

Haaaah *lets out a breath of foul air*, i'm feeling much better now.

Okay. 1 reason to why i'm not going to school these days is i don't want people to be affected by my mood.
I can't even laugh properly anymore.

Rice:Why she laugh like that one. Last time her laughter not like that one.

Why is it SO difficult to live life as per normal?
Because, my dear self, your life ISN'T normal. ACCEPT IT.

I'm down with the flu today, and i have a bruise on my scrawny left leg which looks like this


Rice: How come so old already they still hit you?

You know what? I don't know. All i know is it hurts on the inside as much as the outside, and it numbs you, so you freeze on the spot for a while, then walk to the toilet as if you didn't feel a thing, and finally let it all out when you're safe, in a place where no one's looking.

Joan: Wouldn't it be great if i wrote my life into a poem?
Weiwei: Wait long long lah. Engrish so powderful still wanna write poem. Tsk. Dunno your own limits.

So i decided to copy and paste the lyrics of a song which, i felt, was written for me.

Do you ever feel like breaking down? (Forgot how to cry.)
Do you ever feel out of place? (Get me out of this cage.)
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway? (Tried.)
Do you lock yourself in your room? (Who doesn't??)
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like (i know la, toot)
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me (and me)

To be hurt (ouch)
To feel lost (where am i??)
To be left out in the dark (hey! ow. i think i kicked something.)
To be kicked when you're down (stop kicking. i need to pee.)
To feel like you've been pushed around (hey don't shove. there's room for everyone.)
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else? (Who?)
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more? (No more, please.)
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate? (what a dumb question.)
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding (ooh, it hurts. someone get me a plaster for my heart!)

No you don't know what it's like (i do, i do!)
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me (we can be twins :) )

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there (no fair.)
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
WELCOME TO MY LIFE
WELCOME TO MY LIFE

Okay, was supposed to make it look emo and all. But my lameness got the better of me.

My life is weird.
Sometimes i don't even know what's going on.
...
Weird.