~My english is failing me. Seriously. I can FEEL the decline.~

Didn't go to church today. No excuses.
I'm just an ass.
Initially i was pissed at my sis for doing something she shouldn't have.
But then, ultimately, i was the childish one who refused to leave the house because of that.
Which leaves me no room for excuses, no fingering.
I'm the one to blame.
I'm sorry.

Rice, Randy and HJ came to my house today to do something related to art*ahem*.









No offense, Mr Mandela. But you look better with middle-length blue hair and lip gloss. Not to mention red eyes. Sexy.

Of course there's more to this than meets the eye. Heeheehee.


Went to West mall for dinner.


^^

Went around the place, bought a lot of stuff.

So aunty la!

Then ate our cheap snacks outside KFC, and did crazy stuff, as usual.

Aunties 1, 2, 3!



HJ: "Boxer shorts!!"



Retarded pics coming soon!

There's going to be another wicked day after school tomorrow!
But i must say i don't have the mood for school.
At all.



~All bad things will come to an end... Eventually.~

~Shucks, more and more people are using this blogskin.
Must change soon.
But can't find nicer ones.~

TODAY IS RANDY'S SURPRISED BELATED B'DAY CELEBRATION!!

Was quite mad at my mom for keeping me at home till i changed my shorts.
Pls lah.
How is fbt shorts considered as ultra short??
My jeans were gone, my skirt also not allowed to wear, so i sat at the sofa.
And waited.
For 1.5 hours.

In the end i wore my school skirt out.
HJ's good idea.
Quickly changed out of it once i was out of mom's sight.

Was quite moody cuz supposed to meet them at 3pm but i could only get out of the house at 6.30.

When i opened the door to the rooftop garden(woots!), i saw the Usuals rushing around, pasting stuff on the floor and dropping what looked like pebbles.
My first reaction was

"Need any help?"

Did loads more running around and touched up on our hiding spots (everyone had their own hiding spot) before Randy was allowed to come up.

See, the plan was:

1. Cancel our F1 trip and change to meet near Rice's house.
2. Come up with excuses to not make Randy suspect something was up.
3. Meet few hours before to decorate rooftop garden without Randy knowing.
4. Write stuff on papers to paste on the ground
eg. "Your lip on my butt."
5. Choose our hiding spots (mostly in bushes).
6. Put stuff on the ground so Randy can follow it to our hiding spots and get surprised
7. HIDE AND GET SEEKED!

But Randy found me and YP before we even managed to hide =(
We were still packing our stuff when i saw this tiny black figure emerge from the corner of my eye.

"Gasp. Sandy!!"

Then i ran to my hiding place.
YP just paused whatever he was doing and froze. LOL!

I was so retarded lah, it was obvious that she saw me already but i still go and hide!
Still crouch behind the pathetic plant with all the barang barang.
My whole body was practically exposed except for my face, which i used the pathetic plant's leaf to obscure.
RETARDED!

The whole process was so fun =)

Randy was tearing up big time man =D
Just look at those tears. Touched, i tell you!




Happy touched little girl




From the floor to her back

My dear, we did all those because we love you and you know it!

Last person was Nat, who had the cake.



Enemies:




The people who made it happen:
Randy, Rice, Nat, YP, HJ, MY, Weasel and lastly, me.
Special people with a special bond.


YP's insane moment with HJ's string

Tomorrow's gonna be another great day! ^^



~Friendship. What a wonderful word.~

PROMOS ARE NOW OFFICIALLY OVER!

Phys was a total disaster.
But who cares??
PROMOS ARE NOW OFFICIALLY OVER!!
^^

Class outing at IMM.
I will never eat the pepper lunch there again. So ex.
Bugis pepper lunch is cheaper and serving is larger.
Promoting pepper lunch for free leh!
Just not the one at IMM.


Thanks, GSJ =).

Met Randy at bugis.
Bought a new wallet! Finally.
Getting quite sick of the old one already.

At first i wanted the pink one then Randy said it looked like.. panadol.
Then i chose the black one.
But i think it looks like a guy's wallet.

"Aiya you. Where got guy's wallet so shiny one? And guy where got use this kind of wallet with flowers some more??"
True.
But still couldn't make up my mind.

Rice and Weasel eventually found us at KFC.
In the end, after some useful advice from Weasel, i decided, with much relunctance, to get the bulky pink 'panadol' one.

VS
Dunno why but i think the shitty coloured purse looks nicer in the photo.. I need a much better camera.

Watched Mama mia!
Quite nice but ending abit weird, starting from the marriage of the parents onwards.
And James bond has weird vocals.
We sang along to the songs lor! Haha!
I still screeched "YES!!!" when Meryl Streep asked if we want to hear another song.
Whole theatre only 1 replied.

Reached home at 12plus.
Now i have a curfew.
Damn.

Tomorrow's gonna be another fun-filled day!



~Hope that hug cheered you up =)~

I'm just so disappointed right now.

Why are you so stubborn?
Why do you shut yourself up to the world, especially to the people who genuinely care about you?
What's your problem?!

Don't you know that you're hurting those who care by closing yourself up, like a clam??

Don't think i don't know how it feels.
Don't think i don't know what's going on.
How could you say such hurtful things to people who want to help?

How could you...

Be.
So.
Stubborn.


~I'm hurt.~

Original song:


My remix:


1st time remixing leh! Must support ok!!

Personally i think my version is much nicer. HAHA!!

I think of all the different types of poems, a Haiku is the easiest to write.

Studying econs
Trying my best to absorb
End up writing this

Sounds stupid, but it's still a haiku!

When was the last time you allowed yourself to stop whatever you were doing to appreciate the beauty of nature, especially in the morning?


Sigh. Picture disgraces actual scene. Bad, bad photo taking.

So i was randomly clicking on months in my archives and whilst reading my older posts i realised i've changed. A lot.
I used to use a lot of 'lehh' and 'lahh' and 'lor' and all those weird texting lingos.
Ok maybe i still do that sometimes. But the change is there.
It's significant. Obvious.
Ahh, crapping again.

After reading and musing about my past, i went to check out my older tags on the tagboard. Realised i've not linked a lot of people. I'm sorry.
Was afk for quite a while for this whole year.
Maybe that explains why my posts have gotten significantly longer.

Sigh, i miss myself.

~Today~

Spent time in service reflecting on my sins, how i displeased the Lord by not attending service regularly(shame on you, Joan!), hardly ever attending tuan qi for the whole year(still dare say!), and forgetting to pray(you are in deeeep trouble, old lady.)

So, yea. I will change, as promised in my previous post.

OMGosh, i just remembered i am supposed to be studying maths!

Conscience: Look at yourself. Just LOOK at yourself! And you still say you wanna change?! What kind of attitude are you displaying now huh? HUUUUUH?!

Self: Sorry.

Con: *slap*

The older i get, the more i think. Which is bad. That's why it's called 胡思乱想.



~It's good to reminisce about the past, but it's better to look forward to a brighter tomorrow.~

Watched a rather disturbing video yesterday, all thanks to Gabriel.

Just go to youtube and type 'Benny Hinn'.

Disturbing.

My apologies to all the Charismatics, but i really don't agree with what Benny Hinn is doing. I think he's making use of the 'lifting' mentioned in the Bible to draw in more believers.
My dad said most of the time these things are psychological, and i have to agree.
Many things are psychological, like seeing ghosts.

I had a great talk with my dad, he made me understand more about Christianity.
I know that i've neglected God, due to my studies (bah, excuse). So i told Gab i'm gonna reread the Bible after promo (must remember!!).

I feel very sad to see so many friends who are anti-God. Really very sad.

Of course, i can't say i know a lot about Christianity. I must admit. But i'm gonna change. I have to change, and I WILL CHANGE... After promos, that is. Haha.

After my fruitful talk with dad, i am more sure that God exists. Thanks dad. But in order to spread this message to others, i must get to know him more. I must attend church more regularly and tuanqi and be more active in church... after promos, that is.
Sigh. For a person with low self esteem, i really need the courage to do that.



~Dear Lord, please give me courage. I love you. Amen.~

PS the featured song is From The Inside Out. I can so totally relate to it. I hope you can too.

Today was a rather happy day, i guess.

Was late for morning assembly, as usual. Sigh. Really have to kick this habit of waking up late.
But what to do? Stayed up till 3am, and GP has nothing to do with it at all.
Guess i was talking to myself till 3. lol.

THE HALL WAS SO DARN FRIGGIN COLDDDDDD.

Kept shivering lah. So embarassing!! I was, like, the only one shivering like mad during the whole thing.
Got brain freeze some more. Didn't even know what i was writing. Don't think the essay even made any sense.

Thank God there was a break between the 2 papers. If not i might have really become a human ice cube by the end of the 3 hours.
Yes, the whole thing lasted for 3 hours, with a 5 or 10min break in between.. Or was it 15?

Paper 2.. Cheh. Don't wanna think about it.
URGH. Rice is right.
I must really start reading books.

Here's one that i recommend:



Go read it.



~Just wanna let you know that i had a fun time chatting with you (:~

Great.
Tomorrow is GP PROMO and i've not started on it ONE BIT.
How do you even study GP anyway??
Can't believe i'm still chatting and blogging away instead of doing the things that i'm supposed to do. No self discipline at all.

"Shame on you joan. Continue to chat lah, chat chat chat. Chat away your chances of getting promoted, then you regret." Thanks lah, conscience(concience?).

Ever since i came to JJ, my english has gotten worser and worser (see? no such thing as 'worser'. still use.) Can't believe A1 in english can get D for GP. Felt so demoralised when i'm like in the bottom half of my class. Somemore almost all of them speak chinese around the clock.

Why am i even contemplating now, when i'm supposed to REVISE FOR GP?!

Conscience: WHAT ARE YOU DOING JOAN? DO YOU SERIOUSLY WANNA RETAIN?!

Self: Duhh, no.

Con: THEN GO AND STUDY NOW, ASSHOLE. *slaps the asshole*

Self: Ouch. Fine. I will, once you stop bothering me.

So much for talking to myself.


~Must stop thinking about the million things i'll be doing after promos. FOCUS.~

I've already made up my mind
To fly to England
To start a new life.



~Wait for me~

~I like my new blogskin! *Woots* =)~

Was another mugging day, but only mugged for like 4plus hours. So sad lah. YF had to leave before i even met her. Boohoos. Waited for dad at the bus stop for 1 whole friggin hour till i realised he was waiting for me at another place. Didn't even bother to call la. tsk.

I was having such a good time eavesdropping on this group of primary school boys when i realised 2 ants were crawling on my shirt. WTF gross! EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW.

EWEWEWEWEWEWEWWWWWWWW. I TOTALLY HATE ANTS. If i had to choose one thing which i hate the most, it's ANTS. Shid. Now i have goosebumps. Again. Why does Rice ALWAYS have to talk about ants?! Urgh. Eewewewewewwwwwwww. Ok enough of ants already.

I like my new blogskin!!

Halfway through mugging, i started to play with my new phone's camera. The shutter sound gets irritating after a while, and there's no way to mute it. No more candid photos of peeps =(

Spot the difference between a 3megapichu and 2megapichu photo;

Actually i can't really tell from here.. the pic's too small. But the vase on the right looks fatter.

Then i decided to check out the VGA cam;

Cool! My face looks fatter!! Egghead.

After mugging dad brought me along for this health checkup thingy. As expected, my immune(imune?) system is veryveryveryveyrveryvery low. Then we listened to this talk about making money and my dad was so pissed cuz the guy said it was about health then he told the guy we were leaving halfway during the talk! Haha! My idol *.*

On the way home, mom called to tell us to look at the moon. Then realised the moon is super huge and bright today. Shidz forgot to take a nice pic of it with my nice phone..

I like this blogskin!! XD


~i looked away to hide my tears.~

Damnit. This blog seriously needs a makeover.

I can't believe i've been blogging for four years already!
Thanks Yiren for introducing blogging to me, haha. Think you forgot about it.
Listening to a wonderful song from Soar's blog. So meaningful and touching. Sigh. Dunno why but i suddenly have this wave of sadness overflowing from within. Sigh. This song makes me think of many things.. Feel so guilty of not going to church for so long.. haiz.
But i went yesterday, and it was great (: Like the feeling of returning to a place in your heart. Haha..

Initially it felt very weird cuz very long never go church already then suddenly see so many people, dunno what to say to them some more. Then i saw the Soar people. Felt so guilty.. haiz.

Still slept during sunday service. Only slept for 1 or 2 hours before coming to church lor. I seriously need to reflect on myself. No self discipline at all.

Cosina and Debbie brought food for us from overseas. The jolly beans(if i'm not wrong) were so nice! The nougat and chocolate sticks also =D

~It's nice to know someone cares about you. Thanks Xue Er =)~



Can you define yourself? Cuz i can't.

No one reads this blog anymore. Which isn't a bad thing. I kinda like the mysterious element of not knowing who reads your blog, not knowing if someone actually reads your blog, but still blogging as if people do read your blog. I may sound retarded, but that's me.

~Yesterday~

Woke up at 10.30am and realised i had 7 missed calls. Thanks lah Randy. She was right afterall. I can't wake up on time. I think this is gonna be a super long post. Ah what the heck. No one reads this anyway.

Met her at Queenstown mrt. Thanks for buying me that Zinger meal :)

Then we started walking to the library, and Randy started to complain, as usual.

"Wa laoooo so faaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrr blahblahblah..." So *AHEM* adorable.

We realised that we needed to find a nice spot to enjoy our meal. So i suggested we sit at the bus stop.

"Crazy! We'll look like beggars lor."

So, we ate at the bus stop.

Randy's "glamorous" moments









ack dropped the box. lucky i saved the burger by eating it up.


Randy realised she could see her own reflection and demanded pictures to be taken at once





I have eyes like Lewis Hamilton!


When we reached the library, there were no tables for us, but plenty of seats. So we sat on the floor and put our stuff on this cute dunno what.


Then Randy wanted to do her school's maths mock paper, and wanted me to join in. How could i say no?

So i said, "NO."

A few seconds later, i found myself doing her school paper. What a bother. I'm such a good rhymer.

After a while, she gave up. And i won. Yay, no prize.

Then we decided to:















EGGHEAD!



Went to Cafe Galilee to get linner(lunch+dinner). At 4plus pm. Was so darn friggin hungry lah!!!

Then i met my dad! Haha!! Was so shocked at happy at the same time =D

We ate Fish O Spaghetti and i bought CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE! Damn no pics =(

Nat came and ate Cheesecake. She realised it was fake, cuz,

"Only half of it is cheese and the other is sponge! So what one!"

After that Randy and nat went out to get watermelon juice and i was left to study my chem notes. Sigh.

Finished studying 2 chaps and managed to doze off before they came back. Then we went to sit on the floor to continue our mugging. Funny word, mugging.

Me and nat ended up singing and Randy and the librarian patoller had to "shush" us a few times.
Left when the library was closing.

Went to 7-11 to buy some stuff (milo ice cream and mashed potatoes and drinks). Omg i'm super hungry now.

Then the traumatising event happened.

When we came out, a civil defence vehicle pulled over the sidewalk. Then a few medics came out with a stretcher and some scary looking objects like pliers.

Randy thought someone burst a pipe.

Not long after, the fire brigade came. Gosh. This is serious business. Then randy had to go to the toilet.

When she came out, she told us the show was actually on the other side of the building. We hesitated a while..

"We are like those aunties lor. So kay poh one."
"Ya lor."
"So still going to see or not"
"..."
"..."
"Aiya just go lah"

Sounds so auntie can!!

When we were at the other side, what i saw made me "OMGosh". A few firemen/medics/police were standing on the metal shelter. I saw a body lying on the shelter. Then i "OMG" and turned away. Then nat or randy said,
"OMG, what is that??"

I turned to the spot where we walked past and saw a puddle. The liquid dripping down from the shelter.

"OMG, is that what i think it is? OMG no way........................."

Blood. A tiny pool of blood.

Don't wanna elaborate further, but i think the person survived the fall from the 8th storey because he was still moving when they carried him using the stretcher to the vehicle. THANK GOD.

This incident will probably stay in my head for quite some time.

~After all these years, you still think it's a joke. How could you not know that behind that buck-toothed smile likes a broken heart?~

There is something seriously wrong with me. And i don't know what.

Damnit it's 3am and i've still not started studying for maths mock promo, which starts at 9. I'm gonna failfailfailfailfial! whee!!!!

Just took this personality test on www.personalitytest.net.

I'm ENFP.

ENFPs have a tendency to overextend themselves in both their physical and emotional commitments. Their proclivity to procrastinate and to overlook details complicates their circumstances. ENFPs often move on to new ventures without completing those they have already started. Their charming personalities can show signs of irritability and over-sensitivity when their desires to please different people come into conflict. During times of stress, ENFPs feel alienated. They then engage in deceptions that serve to obscure what is occurring within themselves.

The ENFP finds symbolic meanings behind the immediate circumstances. These meanings are construed as foreboding problems when ENFPs are under stress. Having a pervasive feeling of losing control over their own independent identities, ENFPs will feel virtually split apart by intruding circumstances. They will be "besides themselves" and "just not all there" — as if something, or someone, has taken away the essence of who they are. Not feeling like themselves, the ENFP will become subject to their own feelings of shame for being a phony, a fake or an impostor. If stress continues to grow, they may attribute malevolent schemes to others in order to explain away their fears.


Careers

This lists represent careers and jobs people of your type tend to enjoy doing. The job requirements are similar to the personality tendencies of your personality type. It is important to remember that this is not a list of all the jobs possible. And it is very important to remember that people can, and frequently do, fill jobs that are dissimilar to their personality... this happens all the time...and sometimes works out quite well.



conference planner
speech pathologist
HR development trainer
ombudsman
clergy
journalist
newscaster
career counselor
housing director
character actor
marketing consultant
musician/composer
artist
information-graphics...designer
human resource manager
merchandise planner
advertising account manager
dietitian/nutritionist
speech pathologist
massage therapist
editor/art director

Yay.