Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Something is wrong with me. Seriously.
Why do i have so many mood swings? Can't believe my friend said i'm "scary".
Guess so, since i don't really smile that often anymore.
I miss the days with my crazy friends, Randy, HJ, Rice, MY, YP and Nat. Sigh. Why's my life become like this.
It's been over 4 months now, and i still can't get over it. I tried so darn friggin hard to forget, but i just... can't. Wish i can just spill everything out, to someone. Whenever i think of all the sad things in my sad life, i will get this weird feeling inside, and i can't breathe properly. If you listen closely, you can hear my breathing. I do not have asthma. Freak man, what's happening to me?
When was the last time i cried? During PAE. And it was for the wrong reason. Wrong timing, wrong reason, wrong everything. Blah.
When you don't feel like crying, you suddenly cry. When you really feel like crying, nothing comes out. Just shortage of breath. Again.
Today i may be happy, but what about tomorrow? Freak man, those around me might get affected as well. WTH. WHY AM I LIKE THIS??? WTH.
If it didn't happen, i wouldn't be like this. Damnit.