The sermon today was rather touching, i guess. I forgot why i felt touched, but i remember i did. Rev Wu talked about 奉献 and i learnt alot. I vow to give at least 10% of my pocket money every week, whole-heartedly! (As if i didn't know that)

"我不要再为自己而活，只要单单来敬拜你...." Dunno if i made any spelling errors, but this song is really very meaningful.

After church, my family went with ZP's family to eat at Han's. I sat in ZP's parents' car. It was so funny along the way there, cuz the navigator kept misleading us.

"Turn right after 200m." After 200m, "Turn right now." ZP and I snorted. If we turned right, we would crash into the tree. ZP's mom was so funny. She said she would follow the navigator's directions on the way back and see where they would land in. Hope they're ok...

Ate pasta, as always. Wasn't very fabulous. Dad said some hilarious stuff about ZL's CCA. Apparently, ZL's dad wants to find a maths tutor for ZL. However, his CCA's taking up much of his time. So dad told ZL's dad to go and puncture some holes in ZL's canoeing boat, eviiil =.=

I don't understand how my dad can cope with all the stress. Maybe it isn't stressful to him, but working 24/7 and preaching EVERY SINGLE WEEK (i'm not exaggerating) isn't healthy. He spends his free time (at night) watching boring night TV shows, and if he's lucky, he would meet up with a few friends.... This is life???

Gtg eat my ice cream. Watching my aunt's concert later. Can't wait!

~To W: you are the most immature sec 4 i've ever seen. Grow up.~

My life is getting sadder and sadder, so i decided to cheer myself up;

Your Lucky Underwear is Yellow

You're an extremely happy, laid back, fun soul. And your lucky yellow underwear can help you get even more out of life. In life, you rather play than work. You're apt to quit any task that doesn't nourish your creativity and inner child. Sometimes your drive for freedom hinders your quality of life. You find it impossible to do anything unpleasant. If you want to have responsibilities and still have fun, put on your yellow underpants. They'll help you make a party out of the most mundane tasks.

I can't believe it's so accurate! I'm not saying that i believe in these nonsensical quiz thingies, but it's all for fun eh?

P.S i might be wearing yellow panties tomorrow, if i'm lucky

The final book of Harry Potter is out!! well... it was out Yesterday. But the more i think about it, the more excited i get. Why am i so excited leh?? I always claim to be no fan of that Harry Potter, but now that the final book's out, i'm feeling all fluttery and jittery and all jelly like. Ok, i might be exaggerating a bit, but still. Wooo~~~

Yaya, i've not bought the book yet. But so wad? This idiot on youtube said that Hermione and Ron will die, and they will give birth to 2 kids. How can they die and still give birth to kids la wtf. I will definitely buy the book, but not at the mo.

Gonna watch the Order of the Phoenix later. Maybe blogging about it. But from what i've heard, the movie isn't as good as its predecessor, so don't get your hopes too high. I might bring a mini pillow along, just in case.

~I answered eveything truthfully~

Your Depression Level: 68%

You seem to have moderate depression. Your symptoms are bad enough that they're effecting your everyday life. You would benefit greatly from professional help.

We had racial harmony day on Friday, and I wore this green punjabi costume, which didn't suit me at all, but it's all in the name of being a sport, eh?
Actually, i brought my Sikkim costume, but being the great friend that i am, i lent it to MW. HJ n YP said i should've worn it. *pauses for a few secs* Sry, i really dunno what to say, because that day wasn't very memorable, apart from the performance, which was rather funny, and the students acted well.

The whole bunch of us went to Orchard in our costumes, except Lily Chui. We took a few pics, but i haven't asked Lily to send them to me yet. LILY CHUI, SEND THOSE PICS TO ME!
I regretted going out with them cuz i only had a pathetic 3 bucks with me at that time..!! Diao. Plus i didn't wanna borrow any money from them, it just felt so wrong. They were kind, especially Reni, who insisted that she payed for me. NO WAY am i gonna let someone pay for me, never. Sooo when they were taking neoprints, i just stood at the corner. I mean, there's so many of us la. Even if i really had the mood, my face would still be blocked by them. So what's the point? Rosanne found out, but what's the use? It made me even more sad.. guilty, more like. I think i ruined their mood a lil bit. Sorry. But you can't help it when you're poor.

Afterwards, Lily told me that my face looked ghostly, with semi dark circles. He thought i put make up to make me look so sick. I mean, PLEASE la. Reni confirmed my pathetic appearance. I felt even more worse. They wanted to eat buffet at Sakae, which i obviously could not afford. Of course, some wanted to lend me money. In the end, HJ Royce Lily and I went to find an alternative. Milo arrived just when we were about to part. Lily couldn't stand the hunger so he went back to Sakae to join them. In the end, us 3 went to eat at the food court. I tried to be cheerful, i really did, but i couldn't. I just felt more and more gloomy. I could tell that HJ and Royce were trying to make me smile and stuff, but even my smile was fakely obvious. I tried to think of something to say, but nothing came out of my mouth. So i continued to eat my lousy chicken macaroni (it cost 3 bucks), while they talked. Then i realized i was gonna be late for tuition. I called my mom to postpone the tuition earlier on, but she said he's coming at 5pm.

Nice as they are, HJ and Royce accompanied me all the way to Paragon, then to somewhere else, and then to the taxi stand. By then, my guilt had reached its max. I could swear that my face was as black as ever. I told them repeatedly to go back, but they wouldn't. The queue was so f*cking long, my mom called a few times, asking me how many people were left in front of me. In the end, those 2 cheered me up a bit by doing something embarrasing to me. Thanks guys *produces a virtual weak smile*.

When i arrived home (mom paid for the taxi fare), i was 1 hour late for tuition. The f*king tuition teacher didn't even finish going through the MCQ questions, and left exactly an hour later. Which means he got an extra 1 hour of tuition fees by just sitting there and doing nothing. Shit you.

I know this is a dull post, but the pics will come, eventually. I just can't think of where to put the exclamation marks.

Found this quiz in Jane's blog, and i went to try it out.

You Are 42% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side. Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

Yaya, wadeverrr

These are the pics taken in school today:
(Michelle took these)




At Prasana's house





After that, we went to Jurong East to eat and talk about ghosts. I'm sorry to say that i do not believe that ghosts exist.

Some random pics i found stored in the cam

My doggie!


My piggie!


My pathetic plants!



Me!

It's is Sunday, and i'm tired. I'm tired of all the stuff that's happening around me, and i'm tired physically. Not surprised if i suddenly break down and cry. But I didn't cry when 36 strands of hair was pulled out by my own family member, not did i cry when that family member hit me repeatedly with the remote control. In fact, I didn't even realise I was hit until i saw the big red patch when i was bathing.... Ah, why am i saying all this.

Has the thought of suicide ever crossed your mind? It did to many of my friends. Luckily i'm not the only one. Okay, thinking of it is one thing, but have you ever TRIED to do it? If you've not, DON'T. It doesn't feel good, nor does it subside the pain that you think is slowly killing you. WHY AM I SAYING ALL THIS??? Stop it, Joan. You're freaking them out.

Damn it, forgot the password for the wizlearn thingy. I submitted my email address, requesting for the retrieval of my password, but it seems like they're using snail mail to reply. How am i going to submit the eng essay, which i haven't even started on?

Just spoke to Lily Chui on the phone. Realised that everyone except me are working damn hard, now that o lvls are just around the corner. "Okay, i'm gonna start working after i bathe." I always say that to myself. But it never worked. Well, not exactly never lah, but seldom. Stupid TV. Why must that PERSON turn on the TV for almost 24/7? WHY must the stupid radio be beside me when i'm about to study? WHY must i recieve an sms when i'm studying? All these whys lead to nowhere, because i'm supposed to be blaming myself, but i chose to put the blame on others. Bad attitude joan, very bad.

It's time to change for the better.

~I'm losing my faith in you. Please help me gain it back.~

~Yes CT, i always choose bad timings to post. Why? I don't even know the reason myself o.0~

Toodei....

Went to Sandy's house to do work. Wasn't really productive, but i actually managed to complete 5 compre questions and half of an amaths question. Well, in the morning i did phys paper one, so i'm not extremely ashamed of myself, i just have to face to meet anyone else. Gosh, can't believe i'm actually saying this out!

The fault lies with Bony. Or Bonnie. Forgot the name, sorry! Bony's Sandy's dog. He's 8 years old, and his right eye is blind. I think it's due to cataract, cuz you can see the cloudy substance fogging his vision. Kinda looks like white ppt. He SO hyper la, i tell you. Keeps jumping whenever someone goes to the kitchen. Must be longing for food. I nearly wanted to give him some, but Sandy stopped me, "Why you so soft-hearted wan?" Ok, i am soft-hearted. Sorry lar! He's so adorable lor. His pic is on my phone's wallpaper ~grins~ He kept following me, and licking my fingers. He still put his paw on my arm!!! Awwww.

I ended up playing on her organ. Urgh, distractions. Realised that it was 7:30, so we went to Mac to eat. You CANNOT believe this- we actually ordered 24 mcnuggets. TWENTY FOUR. And, guess what. I ate 12. PLUS the entire LARGE fries AND a regular coke. That's enough to make a normal person vomit. But, i happen to be a freak, so it's normal for me. Sandy, on the other hand, could only endure 8 nuggets. She hardly even touched her upsized coke, much less her MEDIUM fries. Tsktsk. I should be as fat as an elephant lor. WHY am i blessed with ultra super duper high metabolism? WHY??? In the end, she had to da bao the remains of her food home. She was so amazed by my 'power' to devour all the food, she called Nat when i was eating my 8th last piece of fries.

Life is so unfair.

~Dear God, please make me be as fat as the 100 pound beauty. Seriously.~

Guess what, I really only had 2 hours of sleep. Slept at 6:00++am, when Dwee (my maid. I think that's how her name is spelt..) just woke up. I only had 2 hours of sleep lar. Woke up at 8:30am. SIAN. I finally understand the meaning of 'groggy', cuz i had that feeling. Couldn't even stand properly, much less walk to the bathroom. My eyes kept closing. I brushed my teeth with my eyes closed, lol.

I kept dozing off during Rev Wu's sermon, but i know what's going on kay! I wasn't fully asleep then, but my sitting posture was real awkward. My lower spine already hurts from the standing board/broad jump, and that weird sitting position made it worse. I can't even bend down properly! Age is getting the better of me...

Went to BHG, which was once known as Seiyu, to shop for clothes. Was so damn friggin tired la. Still have to walk to Fu Lu Shou complex and walk back, for nothing. In the end, mom bought more clothes than me cuz i was too tired to try any more, and i've decided to save money. Way to go, joan!

Dashed to my bed when we FINALLY reached home. Ahhh~ bed sweet bed. After typing this, i'll have to face reality and get my homework done! Sigh, life...

~To the left, to the left~

Gosh, look at the time. It's 6:26am and i'm STILL online! Wth does 乱棍打死猪八戒 mean????
2hrs of sleep... jiayou.

~I just realised that i've been blogging for 4 years now. Wow. That's pretty long.~

It's 1:13am and i'm still doing my higher chinese holiday homework. SIAN.... I feel like answering the questions in 1 sentence but Cai Lao Shi gave us so many lines it feels bad to leave so much space behind. So I have 2 choices to make; either waste my ink, or more ink cuz i'll have to do corrections anyway.

~tired~