Played truth n dare for 2 daes since yesterday, wif Ren Hao, Bernice n Mae Yeeng. Found out some great stuff, heehee. Should get mor ppl 2 play.

After schl, wen 2 Clementi Mac 2 meet Zhen Liang n Benjamin 2 get stuff 4 2moro's party. Spent $70++. Our budget was $80, n we haven't even bought the cake yet. The cake has 2 b enough 4 18 ppl.. Called Chee Yang 2 get it in the end, heheh. Went 2 Zhen Ping's hse 2 wrap the pressies. Had a great time, laughing throught the process. Shouldn't go into details. Mayb she blogged about it..

I jus realised dat he likes someone els.. I could tell from the tags he left at her blog.. Altho it's nothin out of the ordinary, I jus got the feelin. Mayb I'm jus Hu Si Luan Xiang ing. HAIZ, dunno la. O'lvl chinese oral's comin up. Mus speak more chinese! I wonder if we can blog in chinese.. Mayb I shld 4get about him.. We r like, driftin further n further apart.. I jus hav dat feelin. N dis person jus spoils everything. THIS PERSON. He's SOOO irritating lor! Can't sae further.. Might reveal him if I'm not careful with my words..

Lord, u light up my life. I love u so much. U shld b the one I'm thinkin of. Pls help me jus treat him s a friend from now on. Help me stop havin these feelings about him, PLEASE, O lord, pls giv me the strength. I love u. N pls giv me the courage 2 spread ur word 2 others. Dat's my sole mission on Earth. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

"Well, I know it's kind of late
I hope I didn't wake you
But what I got to say can't wait
I know you'd understand

Everytime I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song

Yeah I know it's kind of strange
Every time I'm near you
I just run out of things to say
I know you'd understand"

I NEED to forget this!!!!!!!! Aargh!!! Ok, breathe deeply. Just act normal Joan, Just act normal..!!! relax, gal.

Couldn't sleep last night, so thought of this crazy poem..

1.44am

Love is so painful,
It hurts when you think about it.
But what could I do?
I think it's addictive as well.
The more I thought about it
The more i fell
Into a well
Which was so deep, I couldn't get out
That's when I started to shout
"I love you too much to ever start liking you
So let's just let this story kinda end.
I love you too much to ever start liking you
So dont expect me to be your friend."

Haiku

I have this guy friend
Who, I think, likes my good friend
Unfortunately

Okok, the haiku kinda sucks.. And the poem is kinda weird, cuz
Firstly, it doesn't really rhyme in the beginning and
Secondly, I don't shout stupid things like what i supposedly shouted in that crazy poem.. Which was, of course, written by me..

Conclusion; bored people do crazy things

{Reminder: Check out the poems i wrote in the previous post, it's just 4 u..}

There's ALOT of things i hav 2 report on.. Cuz ALOT of things happened.. Anyway, I shall report on the Teengames 2006 Table Tennis Competition, which i took part in, cuz Yan Hui forced me 2.. haas.. Can't tell u the reason tho. Heh. Anyway, my juniors, Miao Ling n Pamela oso joined wif Ian n others, forming a team called something "Act".. aiyos, so fast 4got liaos.. Yan Hui n I r in diff teams. She's in Gabrielite (1), comprising of Jerome, Fa Cai Mao n Benny. Whereas I'm in Gabrielite (2), comprising of Dickson, n 2 mor guys, whose names i do not know, lols.. But they all call me E.T. HAIZ. There wer a few mor teams, "TeamSoon" something and "Salvation Army".

The first match was between Gabrielite (1) n Gabrielite (2). I was up against Yan Hui. I won 3-1. Next, we vs the Salvation Army. We won. I didn't hav 2 play 4 the 2nd match, as we already achieved a 2-0 score against Salvation Army. Finally, to determine if we wer goin in to the finals, was our match against "Team Soon" something. I was up against Yang Ling, my mom's ex-student(eek). I lost 3-1. Well, at least i beat her in one match, lol..

We wer up against TeamSoon something in the finals (again). This time, i lost, with a pathetic score of 3-0. It proved that Yang Ling truly was a superb TT player. I will learn from her, hahas.. Our team got the 2nd position, while i think Yan Hui's team, Gabrielite (1), achieved the 3rd position. We will collect our medals n vouchers 2moro at the closing ceremoney at Toa Payoh Sports Hall.

Hi guys, sry 4 the late update.. I've been sick for the past 2 wks, so couldn't come online.. N dad jus repaired his com. Yay! Many events happened during the weeks which i was not online. But 1st, lemme show u the poems i made during the first few days of sickness;

Day 1:
As I gazed Upon +he Ceiling
ArOuSing a peculiar feeling
Suddenly I fel+ so lonely
The darkness was killing me softly.
When I switched on +he light
And looked to my right,
A book called "The Night Watchman" caught my eye;
"Then my soul awakes, I know
I shall be different once across
From what on this side I am; I know
The man across can never come
To the man before the crossing.
Yet fate from a mysterious center radiates
A thousand arms to greet me; I must cross the bridge.
And tall looms the massive silence,
And awake is the soul of steel."
I could not sleep for several days
For I was sick and my eyes were grey.
I laid in my bed, breathing through my mouth
I tossed and turned till I faced my bedroom's South.
My never-ending cough was tormenting me
I coughed and coughed till my eyes were watery.
"When will this misery end?" I cried out loud.
Maybe never, unless a cure can be found.

16/6:
Yesterday, I had a dream;
I dreamt that he
Went out with my long-time friend.
When I woke up
That dream was still vivid before my very own eyes.
Was there a tinge of jealousy?
Was my soul crying inside?
I guess this is all about love...

Haiku:
Lying on my bed
Thinking of you day & night
Pity you don't know

17\6 Haiku:
Woke up, 2am
Broke my personal record
Not good for body

Haiku:
Homework n0t done yet
Feeling stressed up suddenly
Who can comfort me?

Counting down the days till Monday
When I see him, what should I say?
Urgh, what am I thinking , he's just a friend
Just act normally, don't have to pretend.

Lols, was so bored during the days of sickness, so i decided 2 write some crap instead. HAHA!

Pai seh, so long nvr update. Dat's cuz my dad brought this laptop 2 M'sia.. i tink i've mentioned about dis in my previous entry. I used my mom's laptop 2 type the previous 3 entries, but she restricted me from usin it. Anyway, i shall blog about wad happened yesterday;

Got up early reluctantly (as usual) for church at 8+am. I talked on the phone wif Yan Hui until 4+am the day b4 Sunday, tokin about A LOT of stuff. Now i regretted havin told 2 many things 2 her liaos.. She shldn't hav known.. HAIZ. Me and my big mouth. Why issit dat I can keep my frens' secrets until now, but can't keep my own.. Urgh. O well. But i was honoured 2 listen 2 her share her secret(s) as wel =)

Ok, sidetracked jus now. Back 2 the main topic; After service, the committee had a meeting 2 summarize the previous 3 mnths n think of new events for the nxt 3 mnths. N i tot the STF (Special Task Force) had little 2 do.. but the nxt 3 mnths, I'm gonna b BUSY, BUSY, BUSY. After the meeting, we went out 2 eat lunch. Chee Ping tagged along, but those hu came 2 eat wer the people hu hav music training wif my uncle in church. Unfortunately, it started 2 rain while we wer ordering desserts. Benjamin, Zhi Yi, Debbie n Esther ordered Cold dessert, while Zhen Ping n I ordered Ching Tng again! LOL, check out the previous posts! HAHa.. So i smsed my uncle n he was also stuck in the rain. None of the 8 of us had an umbrella, so we had 2 wait paitiently 4 the rain 2 stop. However, we realised dat the rain jus kept gettin heavier n heavier, so the 4 guys decided 2 hail a cab 2 church n come back wif umbrellas.. DIAO lor, church was like, a few footsteps away lor. Wad a waste of money.. So, they got into a cab, and we n benjamin stayed. Luckily, Ming Zhi/Ming Yuan (I jus can't get them right! They're twins mahh) was in church, n he came wif the umbrellas! Hurray. Mine's was broken, so i joined my umbrella wif ZP's. It was so hillarious, like a canopy or smth. Den we kept shrieking, cuz i was afraid of the large puddles of water at the side of the pavements woud splash n hit us whenever a vehicle drove by.

My jeans wer soaked by the time we reached the church. The music training was our last lesson wif my uncle, so he spent half n hour mor wif us.. Oops, i think the conversation wif Yan Hui happened yesterday.. anyway, i 4got la. Haha.

Aiyo, I'm like, so tired now.. cuz i just broke my record of posting 3 entries within 1hr.. Just because i forgot to update on Sunday -.-. Ahh well, here's wad happened yesterday at Kbox;

Woke up at 10++am to find that I was gonna be late. Didn't really feel like going, so called Sandy. She was shocked to find out that I was still at home. Told her I sighted mass volumes of cumulous clouds, a sign telling me that it's gonna rain. But she said no matter what, i still had to come.. Wadeverr. So i told her i'd think about it and hung up. In the end, i still went. But i told her that i would be really late and asked them not to wait for me. She told me to meet Royce at Somerset MRT at 1.40pm. I reluctantly agreed. Had brunch at home. Went out in the downpour. Saw mom and sis. Mom told me to wait for here at the lobby while she went upstairs to get an umbrella for me.. I hate umbrellas.. Waited for a couple of minutes or so with a cat beside me. Mom arrived. Thanks mom and rushed to the bus stop. Didn't really know wad bus to take to Somerset, so called Sandy. Unfortunately, neither Sandy nor Hui Juan knew wad bus to take, so she just told me to take a bus to an MRT station. That's gonna take a LONG time.. However, when i reached there, I was, for the first time, actually on time! It was 1.42pm. I was just 2 mins late! But got lost on my way out.. Crossed the wrong road.. Called Sandy for the upteenth time and she told me to wait at UOB/OUB wadever the bank's name is. I stood under the bank but there was still no sight of the duo. She told me she was already at the bank, but she couldn't see me. Then we realised that there were actually TWO UOB/OUBs near Cineleisure(is that correct?) and i was at the bigger building.. the smaller one was just diagonally opposite. THAT was where they were. Crossed the road but nearly got KILLED my a motorbike, which stopped only inches from my body. OMG WAD A FRIGHT. Could hear many "Ooohs" and "Aaahs" from behind me. How embarrasing...

We went into Kbox and debated whether or not to get a membership card. In the end, we splitted up the money to buy that card. I still felt that it was kinda ridiculous and Sandy got to keep it just because she payed one dollar more.. Went in without Royce cuz he was like, 1/2 an hr late?! And he still accused us of not waiting for him. Hello, who's the irresponsible one here?? Spent a hell (oops, shouldn't have typed that) of a time at Kbox. I totally screamed and blasted my lungs out. We even opened the door to let the other people here all the noise! Had a great time. Ouch.. my wrist hurts from all the typing.. gotta stop now. Happy Hols!

Ok, so here's the continuition of the previous post;

I was talking about the cat thing right? Ok. So, I managed to persuade ZP to forget about the poor cat, cuz it will survive, i think. Then ZP's mom and my Dad came out of the meeting room and we decided to go to the nearest Hawker Centre to eat dessert. ZP, ZL and I ate hot Qing Teng (dat's how i pronounce it, not spell it..) And my dad spilled bits of his dessert cuz it was overflowing.. Then i realised that he had bird shit *ahem excuse me* on his right sleeve, which freaked ZP out. *rolls eyes* And we bought some snacks to last the journey to the National Stadium as we hadn't ate dinner. Unfortunately, my dad had to go home as my granny wasn't feeling too well, so it's left with us. My mom and sis came along. ZP and I sat at the back of the bus, together with Chee Yang, Zhen Liang, Chee Ping and Jonathan. It was funny, cuz the boys were hilarious and we saw this person sitting at the back of an SBS double decker bus with a large bandage on her nose. We thought she had no nose at first. Ha, ha.

LATEST UPDATE: read ZP's blog for further details on Sunday, uncluding the Global Day of Prayer thingy. Saves me the trouble of typing further. LOLS

Wow, i've just realised that I've got A LOT to blog.. u noe, bout Sunday, and Monday AND yesterday.. So i shall start with Sunday.

Woke up at 7/8++ am unwillingly due to naggings by parents. Whined myself out of bed.. and dragged myself to Church (via a taxi). Sermon was ok, i guess.. kinda forgot wat Reverend Wu said.. woops.. hey, but that was three days ago! Ok. So after the service, I was stuck with the usual 'gang'.. u noe, the tuanqi ppl.. We were there chatting about school life, and blahhs cuz there wasn't Sunday School. But Me, Zhen Ping, Benjamin, Zhen Liang, Zhi Yi and Kai Yi had a music lesson with my Uncle (mom's bro) at 3:30pm. And it was only 12++pm when the service ended! So we had LOTS of time to spare. In the end, Zhen Ping, Benjamin and I decided to go to Plaza Singapura, much to the protests of ZP. She wanted to go to Tiong.. We ate at KFC and complained about its service, cuz the person forgot to give Benjamin a cap for his coke and chili sauce.. Then she forgot to give him his Fish Ole, HAHAHA! After that we decided to go window shopping, which was a BORE, as we only window shopped not more than 5 shops before... oh dear, i forgot what we did... I think we went somewhere to rest. Oh, I remembered! We raced each other to the top floor, where the arcade and movie theatre was. Couldn't find Zp.. waited for like, 10mins before she arrived.. urgh, it seemed to me like she got lost! Anyway, Benjamin and I went to play at the arcade, but Zp was afraid to come in. She just stood outside and stared at us through the window.. Ben and I played this really kiddy game, Mario Racing with 2 grown ups. It was a 4 player game, and I cam in... last. PAH. So much for that $1. After that we went to the bookstore and read for awhile, before deciding that we ought to return to church for the music lesson. In the MRT, all of us felt tired, but when we got to chiurch, we weren't that lethargic anymore, cuz we learnt a new song (i think) and i got told off for my last minute work.. BLEAHHS. After the music lesson ended, I bid farewell to my Uncle and waited for my Dad to go for the Global Day of Prayer with ZP, her bro and company. While waiting, Zhen Liang was doing his A Maths hw while ZP and I went to the playground.. Kids these days.. We had this encounter with a fat orange and white cat who seemed to be crying. That was when IT happened. ZP went closer to the cat, and it jumped into the drain cuz it was frightened of us.. Then ZP was like, so nervous, saying she killed the cat and all that. So we followed the trail of the drain and found that it led up to... nowhere.. Thus i tried to talk her out of it, saying that the cat will find its way out eventually.. it's not that stupid, and cats and jump, cuz it has powerful hind legs blah blah blah. Oh no.. mom's scolding. More details later!!

Yesterday was a day which many events happened. Firstly, I woke up at 8++am, despite sleeping at 4++am the day b4. Cuz my church starts at 9.30am.. wth, tokin 2 Sandy jus now.. den mom suddenly said we r s'posed 2 go out now.. URGH. Wadeverrrr.. Ok, details about yesterday later.. Anyway, 2day was s'posed 2 go out with Milo, Jasmine, Mitch, Jia Hong n Stanley wan.. Onlii recieved the sms by Milo 2dae.. so.. haizzz, couldn't go lor.. so sad, anyway.. hav 2 go out.. eating lunch.

Sigh, i'm stayin at home (again?!) stuck on my chair infront of the laptop. It's SOOOOOOO boring. Just exited out of maple. Leveled up 2 of my accts *woot*. It's not that I'm a loner/seat warmer, it's just that I don't have the mood to step out of the house really. In other words, I'm just plain LAZY. Hah. Did anyone see the video i posted at the end of my previous entry? I know Nana did. Hah. (Check my tagboard). It's kinda funny. The guy's making fun of James Blunt and his song "You're beautiful". Chattin as usual, nth to do.. dun feel like doin homework, although my parents keep reminding me to do so.. And i'm not s'posed to be infront of the laptop.. But wadeverrr. Besides staring at the laptop, i watch TV.. and watch TV... and... watch TV. Urgh.. All i do is sit by the com and/or watch TV. i'm such a loser.. It's not that i'n anti-social or wadever, i'm just lazy. Like a couch potato. OKAY, i AM a couch potato. Well, going out on Tues to Kbox with the same you-know-whos.. SIANZZ. Going out with them is not fun at all. They are neo-print obsessed. Waste of money.. Everytime we go out we have to take a neoprint. That's so.. urgh, such a waste of money if u will agree.. Haiz, i just hope that on Tues they WON'T take anymore neoprints. It's ALWAYS with the same people..

Sad and lonely.. ISOLATED if u ask me..